Yesterday, I watched some of the Super Bowl. Aaron Donald said he was "living in the moment". I later found out that one of my friends committed suicide … successfully.
To be honest, I’m not sure if I should put a trigger warning or not. As of this moment, I just can’t contain all of the pain. All those tears are tearing me apart. I only want to find a spot to pour my feelings. Please ignore this if necessary.
She’s beautiful, talented and so young. She’s a good friend. She’s a mom loves her a lot. She might not have known how much others love her or we didn’t do enough. After all, nothing stops her being who she’s.
She’s loving. She’s spreading love for a long time. She contributed constantly. She tried.
Bit by bit, she tried hard to love. She did what she loved. She’s good at it. She actually earned lots of praise for her work.
She went to places that gather joy. She should’ve been happy here and there. She’s just not with us no more.
I don’t know why she chose death. She’s so logical. In the meantime, I do have a taste how hopeless someone can be once in awhile.
It’s all too late.
I want to memorize her but I’m blind to see options.
I regret not attending enough funerals to have the knowledge to express my feelings. I regret not to be there for her when she needed help the most. I keep reading her last words. I tried to find some kind of meaning inside.
After all, something good will come out it. Our God is always in control. I can only trust Him. Then, tragedy can make some sort of sense. Ashes are light. Flowers can bloom. Tomorrow is here.
I also want to help others who are in need. I hope people to rely on friends and family to walk through moments in life. I wish some can see our God cares for us. No one is alone. We fight battles side by side. We’re all loved by Him.
Life has ups and downs. When help is needed, there’s someone who is able and willing to help.
❤️
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